What Will It Mean?

I am now the fool you always intended me to be
I was raised to believe I deserved better than this
But now that I see what I’ve swallowed and believed
I’m starting to think I wanted to earn the right to wear these scars

If I let these scars heal,
Will it mean I can be hurt like this again?
If I fall in love, if I move on
Will it erase the lessons I think I’ve learned?
Will he even mean as much as he should to me?

Your light-fingered contempt for my heart and my trust
Has me questioning how much I valued them anyway
Time after time, I let you whisk away all my values and fears
You’d think a girl would have learned by now

If I let these scars heal,
Will it mean I can be hurt like this again?
If I fall in love, if I move on
Will it erase the lessons I think I’ve learned?
Will he even mean as much as he should to me?

When he smiled at me as we passed today
I felt a warmth on my soul I thought I’d forgotten
But before I can present my heart again
I just wish I knew the answer to these questions

If I let these scars heal,
Will it mean I can be hurt like this again?
If I fall in love, if I move on
Will it erase the lessons I think I’ve learned?
Will he even mean as much as he should to me?

~Tara Vrsalovich (February 2010)

Holding Sunlight In Your Eyes

Like the planets to the sun
Gravity draws me to your eyes

So please turn around bright eyes
Shine your light on me
You hold sunlight in your eyes
While I hold the moonlight

I can only see in silver
But with you I can see the gold
I don't need any rainbows
I have your gravity, drawing me ever closer

So please turn around bright eyes
Shine your light on me
You hold sunlight in your eyes
While I hold the moonlight

Please don't turn away
I need your eyes to stay in orbit
This can't be too much to ask for
I only need your sunlight

The moon is meant to chase after the sun
Slow down your chariot Apollo
And let me hold the sun too
I promise I won't let go

So please turn around bright eyes
Shine your light on me
You hold sunlight in your eyes
While I hold the moonlight
~Tara Vrsalovich (June 2010)